Abigail Katampe - Grade 9, Kettering Fairmont High School
Looking For Happiness
Loss. A word I never really knew the true meaning behind until recently. Thinking back to those days before seems like a serene dream. True bliss. I was downstairs doing my homework, not a care in the world, when I heard a shriek from the living room. In there I saw my mother laying on the floor as tears streamed down her cheeks. She clutched the phone as she screamed ,”No” repeatedly into the speaker. My heart yearned at the sight of her and I immediately ran to her side. Her breathing was erratic and I had never seen her so distraught. I asked her multiple times what had happened and everytime I received silence in return. Finally after she had calmed down some, she looked me into my eyes and told me that one of her uncles had died. My heart dropped as the words flowed from her lips. Not because of the death, but because when I looked into her eyes, the usual light behind them was gone. I had never before seen my mother look so helpless, so broken. I didn’t know how to help her, so I returned to where I was before. Thoughts plagued my mind for hours. I didn’t know exactly what I was to do, but I did know that I needed to be my mother’s strength. Later that night, I found her sitting on the couch. The room was dimly lit and silent. I sat down quietly and enveloped her into my arms. I told her repeatedly that everything was going to be okay and that she would be okay. Although she was crying, she lifted her head and looked at me and quietly muttered the words, “Thank you.”. For the first time that whole entire day, I saw a little bit of her old light return.
This time taught me how important it is to uplift those around you. Even doing this for her made me feel better than I ever have before. The pain that I had felt when I saw her earlier in the day suddenly disappeared when she wasn’t hurting anymore. This moment made me realize the true meaning of happiness. True happiness is being able to smile even though you’re hurting. To laugh even though you may be scared. To be strong while internally you may be weak. Even though times seemed grave and nothing felt like they would ever return to the way they were before, the slight amount of happiness that I was able to bring into my mom’s world that day did more for her than I will ever begin to know. That day taught me that sometimes it is important to be strong for others rather than think about myself. “Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come without leaving happier.” - Mother Teresa