Audrey Meixner - Grade 9, Chaminade Julienne High School
I Time I Chose to be Happy
Last year, early March, I started getting bullied. I had never been bullied before until then. The three girls used to be my best friends, until one day I disagreed with them. All of them used to be sweet and caring, but they started being rude to other people. I didn’t like it when they were rude to my other friends, and they knew that. So they started to be rude to me. They started taking my seat at lunch, mimicking my voice, and talking about me behind my back. Everyday felt like a competition or a fight. One girl, would move if I sat next to her, and another girl would just flat out ignore me.
I will admit it was difficult being bullied. Watching them be so nice to everyone else, and when that person would turn their backs, they would turn into snakes all over again. I often found myself asking “why?” Why did they feel good hurting me? Would it be so hard for them to be nice? The answer is yes. Lunch ended up never being fun because I would eat my food in silence, too scared to talk to anybody.
One day I couldn’t take it anymore and I told my parents that I wanted to switch schools next year. We discussed our options, but nothing was sticking out to me. After school one day I went up to my bedroom, upset that I didn’t know where my future in education was going, and my brother walked in. He suggested that I completely skip eighth grade and be in his high school. This idea seemed absolutely crazy to me, but then I thought about it more. I had always received good grades on everything, and I really was unhappy.
I was unhappy with how easy school was, how mean the girls were, and how much I disliked my school. I was ready for a change. I chose happiness, even if others did not want me to, and I am so happy I did.
I love the decision that I made. I finally feel like I fit in, and that people care about me. My choice mostly influenced the people I went to school with, especially the girls who bullied me. I recently discovered from one of my true friends at the school, that the girls actually missed having me around. They wished that I were there with them right now, but I am still happy with my choice.
I learned from my decision that what mattered most was if I was happy, not if the others around me were happy. I chose for me, and only me, which I’m delighted that I did. My attitude will be influenced in the future because I am in the right place right now. I am where I’m supposed to be, and it should have been that way a long time ago. Lastly, I haven’t been bullied since, and I’m not planning to ever be again.